On the side, an embarrassed writer doing the brush dance.

I have reduced my posts and tweets during the last weeks. Learning myself to write and illustrate have almost taken all my time. Heffanutt and The ant king seem to have opinions on their own, as weird as it sounds. I`m a bit embarrassed admitting that.  Ha, ha.

Another a bit embarrassing but fun thing is that I found myself dancing in the living room the other day. Heffanutt has this brush dance, a dance that he does when brushing his fur every morning. I had to make sure it really worked out, and that it is possible to do it to music someday. It would have been fun if I could actually see him dance one day, but that is a dream.  I`m happy that I was alone while dancing, it probably looked pretty weird, ha, ha.  Is it normal that writers test out some of the things their characters doo to see if they really work?? Or is it just me? I had so much fun though.

I`m hanging on the best I can. I really have to step up my planning to make room for all and living my life too. I have to admit I`m a bit unstructured. Seems like I`m forced to learn now, which is probably good.

How do you manage your blog(s) and time for yourself?

I tried to take a break, but when I stopped writing and drawing, my brain started to produce one idea after another instead. I ended up coming from a hike with a notebook filled with notes. Maybe it`s a beginners “problem” and my ideas will reduce themselves as the time goes by and I use them.  I guess I have to stop this post now because sometimes I can go on and on writing about nothing and everything and I don`t think you would like to read a “thousand page” long post.  Bye for now






On the side, following Heffanutt

Three chapters posted and I`m still here. My hand is worn out from illustration marathon the last three weeks. It`s so fun to draw, so I happily spend most part of my days working, knowing it`s an end to it.

At first, when I posted the first chapter, I thought I would follow Heffanutt and hide in the nearest closet. Got the feeling that I would like to put on a helmet. I`m proud of me posting, I did what I said I would do. It is possible to aim for your goals and dreams even if it`s scary sometimes. I haven`t reached my goal yet, but I have started the journey of my dreams.

Now what? A short break I think before I start to write the next story. I haven`t time to rest too long. Have you ever felt that it is something you really have to do, that you can`t get there fast enough? But it isn`t possible yet, so I sort of feel that I`m jumping up and down in impatience. – That`s what I feel about The ant king and Heffanutt right now. –  I have promised my little friends to tell the story of when The ant king met Heffanutt too. Then we will see, I have some ideas.








Twigmania, Meerkat

Sometimes it`s ok to laugh.  Sharing this not so good drawing of a Meerkat, hoping to give you a good laugh out there…  Please, could anyone who can draw, draw me a Meerkat how it should be ha, ha, ha

In my defense, this is my first try ever.

Wishing you all a good day. Bird





On the side, mostly nauseous

Page after page written. Some days words come rushing in and I can`t stop it, other days I really have to struggle.  But one thing is almost constant, I`m feeling slightly nauseous.

Why? I mean the only one who put pressure on me is myself. In the end, “no one else” but I will probably read anyway – I`m not pessimistic here, I`m thinking of how little my blog is compared to the enormous amounts of blogs out there. Delivering something good or bad isn`t the end of the world either way.

I do this to learn, and being totally open with it, but still, I have this urge to be a writer and illustrator at first try – a utopia. I`m asking me to do things that are impossible because I know I lack the skills for the moment.

Sometimes I feel like Jekyll and Hyde, one realistic, totally relaxed, one with crazy expectations and equally disappointed of the work that I produce. I see the picture in my head, but my hand can`t produce it. I have a story in my head, well written, engaging and easy to read. But, when I write the words, they seem to come out wrong and when I read it doesn’t sound the way I like.

I`m realizing the deadline I set for myself is too short, I can`t produce my drawings fast enough – I must have thought that I was a machine working 24/7. I rather draw them as I want to than rush it and publish unfinished work.

It`s one very positive thing happening though, the number of English words that I know is slowly increasing.

I still write word by word, draw drawing by drawing, something ok, something bad, something better.

I wonder if there`s any hair left on my head after this and if I need a year`s vacation or so.









Be a more confident doodler

First of all and something you hear over and over again; Practise, practise, practise. You won`t be better without it. Why not start a doodle a day challenge, or a time period of 100 days, and post it on social media. I know it`s an old tip but it still works.

Talking about bad doodles, you can use them for something good. Keep them along with good ones, now you can monitor your progress. Remember, it`s not an exam, you can always draw another one.  Sometimes you can`t make a good doodle no matter how much you try, it`s like life itself, some days are good, some days challenging.

Have someone else judge your work – it is easier to judge your own work harsher than others.  Find someone who doesn`t criticize you in a bad way – that`s a killer on your creativity – but rather give constructive feedback.  Feedback can help you improve.

There is no right answer

Stop thinking, just do.  It takes practice to stop the ongoing stream of thoughts. Yoga or meditation could help. You could also try doodling blindfolded to force you to feel rather than see, judging and thinking. When you open your eyes and see what you drew, if you`re not satisfied, maybe you can make something else out of it.

Creativity is – at least to me – something that changes day by day. Some days I got hundreds of ideas they all want to get out at once, other days none. When creativity is low, maybe doodle while listening to music could help you. Some listen to people talking on the radio or a meeting. Listening to a story is another idea or look around the room for patterns.  Remember your doodle doesn`t have to look like anything it could be an abstract one

There is no right answer. Unless you for some reason have to doodle something specific, there are no rules telling what a doodle should look like.  Don`t compare yourself to others too often. Remember to keep your own style and not copy someone else. Find the style that works for you, what you are good at. It might take some testing, googling and brainstorming.

A list that might help; Reasons to doodle even if your “not as skilled” as everyone else